I can't clear my mind of sundays game. I think i am a very, very big joke. When i don't play physically, i get accused of playing physical. Maybe i'm not cut out for team sports. I can't even hold a team together. I can't even get a hold of myself. I wasn't the captain. I am not the captain. Can't even study in peace. Goooosfraba. Sigh. Time to hang up my boots again.