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Thursday, October 22, 2009
Priorities.

I admit, then when i look at any SPU's member's blog, i will confirm jealous one.

To see a team that is dynamic, working as one, and everyone sharing the same passion.

Each and every member playing with the same intensity, dripping sweat and blood not for a mere plastic disc, but for a dream forged by friendship, will and determination.

I tried to do the same. Why did i fail? Was i too fierce? Too slack? Too stubborn?

I may never reach my peak again. OR whatever i have achieve is called.

I should have made my priorities right. Did i really want the curves of the opposite sex, or grasping the curves of a disc in the scoring zone?

What a fucking waste.

OH well. Make do with what i have. If i cant run might as well quit.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Saturday, October 17, 2009
Too much time.

Some poeple just have too much time on their hand.

I think im a human magnet arrr. These few days i keep banging to people on the street or at malls. I siam they still slow mo come bang me. Like im invisible or people have no graciousness to give way nowadays.

Today was damn shiok. went for training despite the locking in my knees. Couldnt complete the six rounds which i think i could if i pushed myself harder. But i wont for the people who care. People still care, for me. Im quite touch, actually.

But it feels good having no restriction, not carrying that it'll hurt after running, just pumping my body to go faster.

But the freaky thing is that my right knee is swelling up. Oh wells...

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Friday, October 16, 2009
".., for now."



I come home, brooding about the days to come til the day i cannot support my own wait at all, and all i need is a lil Sunshine to brighten me day.

I am going to grow FAT and die. I swear. Everyday i sit in bunk and rot. Sooner or later i will look liddat.



Is there a corset for men?

Speaking of bunk, of late my fellow Square neh nehs have been hooked onto RISK.



Wah i tell you the game play is like some taiwanese/hongkong serial drama like that. All the plotting and tension and betrayal. Wooooh. FIERCE.

PS one of my platoon mates thinks im damn flirt. But five days a week i am with Men. How can i...

I think this world needs more love. Like an over dosage of love.

My sister ask me why im hooked onto Korean music, even though i dont understand what they're singing. I tell you.

1) Everyday face so much #$@^*^#@$#@#@ from everyone hear also sian the face blacker than kiwi.

2) Tune nice i hear shiok even i dont understand the lyrics relaxing ar.

3) I read the translation. The message is simple, sweet, and what we really need to do to each other.




I remember that night, we discussed about having our own little island, just you, me, your parents and close friends. And you tending to any of my sporting injuries. I do need a little TLC now.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Monday, October 12, 2009
500 days of suffer.



(500) days of summer.

I swear, no other film has made me this pissed off since i dunno when. LOVE IS BLUFF ONEEEE. Love is not like shares. Where got people play safe one bide the time then see safe or not then invest. And when i mean bide, i dont mean see the character. IS see whether got future or not. See can earn money or not. Like that is call living a singaporean life style. Play safe. KNN. Want say want. Dont want say dont want. Dont bait five fishes then take the biggest one. Where is the passion when there is no risk?

KNN really reflects last year. Minus all the physical stuff.

I am officially turning off my PENIS.




PS, who can resist Sunny? (1.05 min)

Aeygoooooooo

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Sunday, October 11, 2009
Aiyo.

Fucccccccccccccccccccccccccck i pivort also knee pain

JIALATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Karma.

Warning:

You might not like what you read next. Viewer discretion is adviced ( After much FEEDBACK)


Did you know FEEDBACK contains all six letter of the alphabet?

Bloody hell. Everytime say i will play until my leg break, my leg now really wanna break.

Possible Meniscus tear. KNN cant run cant jump. Now and then will ache. Oh wells.

Camp now damn sian. Cannot do any running means will grow FAT. GROW FAT AND DIE. Wahahahah.

Grab Huck Score 09! Wah INTENSE AR. Both the game play and the sun. Loo Loo cramp like nobody business. Note to self: Please wear plastic gloves when massaging people with deep heat on. My hand BURN like ding dong after the deep heat seeped into my skin. Whhhhhhhhhhoooo. got the new ZD jersey. I can Zao Gen ar... By the way, O$P$!!!

Went to meet Alpha people at Brewerkz soon after. Was late. Then we went to Zouk. And boy i hate that place for getting grinded by my "commando" bunk mate. Sian zi pua.

Now now lemme digress a bit. Only a fool would have given up.

Whoooooooooooo can resist such a ray of sunshine like SUNNY!!!



Now now. Heck yes i missed the times when i lived with such a pretty and beautiful ray of sunshine in my life, and in my heart. But at the end of the day, the better of my passions took over.

And yes. I miss Sunshine a lot. I do think of you from time to time. Everytime i come across facebook or your blog... The memories come back, good and bad. We could have had a closure last year. We still can. But i must settle some stuff first...

Who would love a boy who cant support you at all?

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Sunday, October 04, 2009
F***

I wish to curse and swear,
About my knees wear and tear,
And for being the chow ah beng,
To an unwilling chow keng.
Curse the ailments as this,
dragging me away from the disc,
As my body is no longer fit,
I might as well quit.
I will give up all,
Til i pick up from this fall...

Let me tell you a story.

One day, a Chow ah beng went to protect one gate.
waiting at the gate are other gate keepers, waiting to catch a Moor who they suspect of taking other people's stuff without asking.
So they set a trap for him.

When the chow ah beng's shift was over, he went to sleep.

At an hr before 12, the moor appeared and after some commotion, he demanded out.

The Rear Protector stopped him, and was threathened by the moor.

The head Gate Protector rang the magic bell, and the ah beng, shocked, jumped off his two level bed.

That is how i further injure my knees. Probably meniscus tear. Tsk. sianz lahhhh...

I realise i like to complain a lot. Oh well. Give me a bright side to look at.

Ask me, is there anything that makes me happy.

Ask me, is there anything i look forward to every morning i wake up.

And i will tell you no.

Every weekend i look forward very much to go for ZD training to improve myself. But each week i go there, i dont feel myself getting any better, any fitter, any wiser game wise.

I feel myself slowing down physically. Disc wise, i am stagnent.

Today i went for training straight from camp. Damn the knees that hurt during warm up.

I'm falling to pieces.

Why didnt you come back when i asked you to.

Why do all of you come at the same time.

Dear God, why?

More than ever, i feel so much alone. There is a peace in my seperation from everyone else. I need to be alone.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.