let's dance in style, so says the guy with two left feet.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Bleugh.

Hello i'm back.

2 weeks in BMT made me reflect a lot.

And 2 weeks there has reduced my vocab by a lot.

It made me realise the importance of family. Didn't know i would miss my family that much.

It made me realise the importance of spending enough time with your love ones. Not to regret not spending enough.

It made me realise we should never take people's concern for granted. There are nasty people out there, or people who turn nasty. And it is the Love and concern of others that brings us back to sanity.

It made me realise tears are worth nothing. Tears wont change anything.

Dear friend.

When we first met, be it coincidence or divine intervention, i did feel a connection. And im sure both of us felt it was platonic.

I was surprised that we didnt stop messaging either, however trivial the contents were.

And when you asked me when i was in the toilet, i wasnt sure whether to tell you or not. But i did. Without fear of losing you as a friend. i didnt know why either.

All i did was let you know how i felt about you.

What you did was to let me know, be it weal or woe, you will be there for me.
In my darkest hours, you will hold my hand and guide me through.

And i will do the same for you.

I have never regretted a day since i met you, only regretting the times that we did not spend together.

And so i will wait. Until you are ready, we are both ready.

I want to grow old with you
I want another lifetime with you.
I want to hold your hand, rain or shine.
I want the whole world to know this sweetheart of mine.
This world is beautiful,
Because there is You.

You open my eyes to so much more.
You show me love, and love from above.
though we're apart, we're linked by the heart.
I told you before, that i finally believed in God's miracles.
Because there is You.

You are the beacon through times of darkness.
I know i can always come back home to you.
You are home.
My idea of heaven,
Is being next to you.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

triple chin.

2 more days left to enjoy.

Jialat.

Left4dead is so freaky dicky scary i dont dare play anymore...

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Monday, April 06, 2009

Ultimatum

My legs are going to break. I swear.

MY shins hurt like crazy.

I cant sprint properly anymore.

I want to die.

But before i die i still want to grab huck score.

At least that is a fitting way to die.

4 more days.

Sigh.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Friday, April 03, 2009

Cough.

I just did. The whole week. Wasssssssssted.

Tuesday.

Went to buy NS stuff. Bought only one ruddy pair of goggles for 21.
Went to meet Fern. Ate at LJS. 15.50
Bought meself an over-sized superman shirt as i was too shy to go fitting room. 29.

total: 65.50.

Wednesday.

Went to play frisbee at sembawang MRT court.
Ate a lonely lunch. 4.50
Bought a slurpee. 1.80
Bought Green tea(s). 4.80.

total: 11.10.

Today. Slept til 2pm.
cleaned my house
Had a lonely lunch.
Went to meet Lukas to eat Sushi buffet. 28.00
Bought a Guitar. 67.00
Lan. 6.
Drinks. 4.

total:105.00

TOTAL:181.60. ZOMG. And i nearly bought a pair of surfer shorts for 70. WTF.

Someone owes me a hundred for losing something important once. Sigh.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

A loser.

I am a loser.

I have gained and lost so much more.

Cheese box.

"Hurt"

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Ever since the release of the results i go to bed each night staring at the empty ceiling, which is more colourful than my bleak future and wonder what good i am anymore to the society, my club, my family. Everything i have gained in my tenure in MI has definitely gone away.

Where were the ones i swore i loved?
Where is my child which i have formed with both hand and many broken discs?
Where are my friends who have flicked with me?
Where are my legs which dont hurt each night?

I'm so sorry, Sharon, for shouting at you on the pitch on sunday. MY actions still haunt me. You didn't deserve that.

Weds, the 25th

Went back to play frisbee.

Thurs, the 26th.

Went back to CSS to play Frisbee

Fri, the 27th

Went back to CSS to referee for the girl's interclass tournaments.
4 Hrs of Frisbee for three consecutive days do not do my shin good.

I owe Kim articles.

Saturday, the 28th.
IVP 2009. I watched SP rise and soar. Plate champions is a stepping stone.
Went for steamboat with SP. I have passed my time. Do i belong? Experienced and Expired are two different stories.
Went to gene gene's house to stay over. Rich Kid siaaaa.
Watched I am Legend and Quarantine with Ah Boy and Gene gene.
Woke up, feeling apathetic. Cabbed to church.

Sunday, the 29th.
I'm sorry Sharon.

Tuesday, the 31st.

Bought a superman shirt. Cant find cheap undies around. I'm sorry Fern.
Even an MRT ride reveals Human nature.
Not the first account.
Hallelujah.

Hallelujah.

Because of you i don't think i'm ever ready for love. It's because i'm not ready to lose anyone else anymore.

"Would you still love me in the morning?"
"Forever and ever, babe.

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